Have you ever had one of those days where you start your day by reading a powerful verse, share it on your social media channels, go about daily business, and then finish your day realizing that verse was meant for you?
This happened to me last week.
And it hit home. Hard.
Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be acceptable in your sight,
O LORD, my rock and my redeemer.
(Psalm 19:14 ESV)
Now…I don’t want this to sound like I’m perfect. I’m not even close to perfect. I have my own struggles aplenty.
But I discovered there has been a very subtle sin creeping around in the corners of my heart that I haven’t really dealt with before.
Why?
I’ve been calling it other names. Anything but sin. And I really think it’s been something I just haven’t noticed, because I wasn’t looking for it.
But Jesus says it is equivalent to murder. I’m thinking maybe this is something I should deal with. Now.
But I say to you that everyone who is angry with his brother will be liable to judgment; whoever insults his brother will be liable to the council; and whoever says, ‘You fool!’ will be liable to the hell of fire.
(Matthew 5:22 ESV)
People express anger in many ways. Mine has been more of the internal murmuring of the heart. I’m fairly positive no one around me would even know. This anger wasn’t being expressed in words or emotions.
Long story short – I’m thankful for forgiveness. And I have hope and a great Intercessor.
And as the conflict rages, what a sweet satisfaction it is to know that the Lord Jesus, in His office as our great Intercessor, is prevalently pleading for His people! O anxious gazer, look not so much at the battle below, for there thou shalt be enshrouded in smoke, and amazed with garments rolled in blood; but lift thine eyes yonder where the Saviour lives and pleads, for while He intercedes, the cause of God is safe. Let us fight as if it all depended upon us, but let us look up and know that all depends upon Him.
(Spurgeon)